Here, i want to write something what i feel in few month. Exactly, since i met someone who (i think) cares to me.
In reality, his attitude is far away from cares.
He is rude. And always say with cursed word.
I don't know 'love' is like that.
I know, that his condition is not as luck as me. I know that, before he met me, he was in good condition. Good finance, and good family. But i don't know hows he at that time.
Also, he don't know about me before.
How i lived with my salary just IDR 800K. He don't know how hard i looking for job. He don't know how i deal about what i have to study.
He don't know how hard my past.
So, he come to my life that my life was neat.
He is so temperament. i am doing nothing is wrong to him. I am doing self-defense because i felt hurt.
He always say "dog", "son of a bitch", and others that hurts me.
Really hurts me.
I don't know what i have to be done.
Everything i do is wrong. Maybe i breathe is wrong.
I know he's stressed but he don't have to blame me in everything. Not my fault he bankrupt. Not my fault he loose.
I accept him in all condition, i help him as much as i can.
But, like this his response?
He angry, is my fault he says. In fact, he is angry because his mind.
He says i always with him because he is poor. But i never mind about it. I never doing that. I never humble him.
Why he always hurts me? Just WHY?
I need help. Need help to free from him. To live with normal life. Not with him again.
Help me.
Exactly, i need help. Lot of help.....
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Psikopat deh,,
ReplyDeleteexactly! everything is over, dude. i hope i get a better life and better someone wkakaakakak
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